I just can't seem to catch up on my sleep. As you may be aware, I am trying to "mother" a newborn kitten. (If you want to read our story about that, please click here, here, and here.)
He is trying to suckle in my hand. I use the time to caress and pet him. I think touch is particularly important, since he doesn't have a Mama cat to lick him, or siblings to cuddle with.
Anyway, I know I am not as good as Mama cat would be, if Mama cat would have taken care of her business. We think she instinctual walked away and ignored them because we suspect at least one was premature. He was extra tiny, and had no fur on his legs or ears, and miraculously, that one is the one that survived..........
So in the 11 days that we have been trying to care for 4,3,2, now ONE kitten, named Split Pea, I have NOT done a good job at night. Sorry. I set my alarm with the best of intentions, and sincerest desire to wake in 3 or 4 hours. Last night I even set two alarms. It seems that I SLEEP straight through them, only to wake up a few hours later almost in a panic. I quickly check....feed.....pet, and start my day, never with the normal amount of sleep that I desire. Today my daughter watched, and woke me up from a nap, so that I could feed at the appropriate time.
Yes, she is a good helper. Ultimately she has decided that she prefers to do "support tasks," and "pet duty." Occasionally he needs simply to be supervised while he exercises, or he needs soft tender stroking with delicate finger tips. Cherish is very good at all of this.
So I have help, but I go around half of the day, feeling droopy despite my pot of weak coffee in the morning.
I could easily feel guilty for this:
"Why can't you keep up with your to do list Tammy?
What's wrong with you? It seems like you do very little and then feel tired. (But sometimes you are downright perky.)
Why are you spending HOURS on a KITTEN which you surely don't need. There are more important things in life."
Oh I certainly know there are more important things. I am a rather common person, with simple expectations, simple pursuits, but I will seek to love who and what is in my path (except certain bugs, and reptiles, or rodents, are not welcomed, sorry) and while I do so, I live with gratitude, reverence and awe of the creator.
God loved and chose David when he was yet a shepherd boy, and He allowed His Son to be born in a manger where animals were under the same roof, and in the flesh, Jesus hung out with possibly stinky fishermen (ever been around a lot of fish for an extended period of time?), where their daily work involved nets or "fishing gear," and fishing boats.
1 Samuel 16:7......the Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.
I truly suspect that He is more concerned with the contents of my heart, rather than what work my hands do. Perhaps He values the lessons there are to learn from caring for a needy creature such as our Split Pea (Sweet Pea).
When he gives me a bigger test, a bigger, more important challenge, I am not sure that I will ace it, but I know on whom I will lean. I know whom I will seek strength and guidance from. I know what my number one calling is. I know that it is OK for me to have seasons in my life, because Jesus even had "seasons," in his short life among us in the flesh.
I will go forward, with my humble pursuits, thanking God for the good things He has done, and feeling exceedingly blessed today, even if tired and sleepy. There are seasons to life. I will embrace the season of today, here at my house, with cleaning and kitten care to do.
Jesus said to him, "You shall love the Lord your God, with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the first and great command. And the second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself."
The Lord is my strength and my shield. My heart trusted Him, and I am helped; Therefore my heart greatly rejoices, And with my song I will praise Him.
I hope that you find joy and gratitude in your season today, and that you have been encouraged. Thank you for visiting.
Grandma Mary Martha 💖